Me ❤

I dreamed of someone close to me, committing suicide by jumping off a building last night.

(In order nt to scared tt person, I shall not revealed the name.)

The reason for committing suicide was abt to be find out...but I woke up. So too bad, I'd nv get to know y tt silly girl did tt silly thing. (-_-)

Somebody once told me tt if dreams are in coloured, they'll nv come true. If they are in black & white, they'll cum true. What I had dreamt of was in coloured. Therefore, whoever tt person is, can put her heart dw. =)

I'll always hv weird dreams, so kinda used to it. But pls, can let me dream of something sweeter??? Least, let me smile in my slp. *hAHaz*

Kk...talking about suicide, I do take my hat off people who has the courage to do so. Wonder where does their courage comes from. But when thing happens, nobody will actuali sit dw calmly n think thru properly. All they can think of is to end their life n get themselves out of the misery.

I'm gona b so mean here but I'm sori to say tt people who commits suicide cuz of love is kinda silly. Of cuz, I do not have any right to judge anybody or their actions. Mayb they reali love tt bf or gf of theirs so much tt they are willing to sacrifice their life for them. Mayb sumday, I'm juz like them too, being so silly n commit suicide.

But I'm not gona b selfish. I'll drag my I-LOVE-YOU-SO-MUCH-THAT-I'LL-DIE-FOR-U boyfriend to die tgt with me. *hAhaz*. Tt will then b so called The Greatest Love Of All.

Even if I'm to die alone, I'll come back n haunt him. I will! *hAhaz*

I'm juz bullshitting cuz I will nt have the courage to do so.

Firstly, I'm afraid of height. So its impossible for me to stand on top of a building n jump dw. Or maybe, I may juz die by freaking out cuz of the height. *haHaz*

Secondly, I'm too short to place the rope up high n fr der, hang myself. So this is definitely out.

Thirdly, not possible for me to cut my wrist cuz what if I nv die n den der will always b this scar on me. Its so ugly can.

Fourthly, inhale charcoal or gas by shutting off all the windows n doors. I think aft awhile I cnt take it due to the humid surroundings tt I'll open up all the windows n doors. *hAhaz* So out.

Fifthly, by gulping detergents dw my throat. Erm, I think I'll split it out in a sec due to the not-so-nice taste.

Sixthly, swallowing down sleeping pills or other pills. Muz b kidding. Cuz this is something which I definitely will nv think of.. cuz I hate medicines so much. *hAHaz*

Seventhly, drowning myself in the sea. But think aft awhile, I'll b out of the water due to the saltiness.

Lastly, dashing onto the road. Worst. If I nv die, the drivers are gona curse n swear at me for bringing unncessary troubles to them n causing traffic jams. So, better pray tt I die on the spot. *hAHaz*

Judging from what I've written, I doubt I'll eva commit suicide cuz all the ways mentioned above are all out. *hAhaz*. Therefore, kindly provide me with ideas on how to die if anyone can think of one. Thank U. =) *hAhaZ*

*Saw tt cute, handsome ABC guy again ^^ <333